fudgy pudgy.

HEY

2008-07-21T19:22:00.002+08:00

imported ALL my posts to ohhellolove.wordpress and updated with a CHINESE entry it's abit shabby and maybe emo too but oh well on the spur of the moment update

2008-07-20T20:12:00.002+08:00

Just looked at the pictures on Zoe's blog and they're damn awesome! (Zoe's Fusilli's photographer for FOC 08) But I don't look so good it's sad ): It's okayzz the rest look so happy and good her skillzzz pwn everyone haha. Today marks the first day I went for service followed by meeting after that. It's been so long I don't even remember the procedures for 圣餐 and it felt a tad queer doing 伴唱 after so long, especially this time we stood at the front tgt. Scary. I never really shared this with anyone but here goes to whoever reads this. It's queer how I don't feel the same anymore when I go to church, especially after such a long time. Previously I know I'll always feel very overwhelmed and enlightened and my heart will be alot lighter after worship. I don't know if it's because I'm desensitised already so I'm indifferent to everything. I DONT KNOW.

OKAY IM VERY DISTRACTED ALREADY BECAUSE I THINK I PRESSED THE WRONG BUTTON ON THE WASHING MACHINE SHITTTTTT GOTTA FIX THE THING BYE

Happy&retarded kidzzz

2008-07-20T00:44:00.010+08:00

Something retarded to share ♥ ♥ ♥

2008-07-19T23:22:00.002+08:00

Mysoju.com is awesome because it has Japanese movies like awesome 恋空 which made me cry buckets and buckets. It is so predictable but it just makes people wna continue watching it. Okay maybe it's just me.
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Going to church tmr. I am scared x1000000. How come there's nobody to really talk to online when I feel so unawesome now!!! D:

ANGRY

2008-07-19T20:05:00.002+08:00

What is this I am very angry now because just when I wanted to go cut my hair it started to rain. I'm really very angry now REALLY VERY ANGRYYYYYY

2008-07-18T21:14:00.002+08:00

I swear my new favourite colour is pink. Maybe me getting a pink lappie earlier on was a sign already :O
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MY COVETED PHONES:

sony ericsson z555i

sony ericsson w580i

2008-07-18T09:47:00.001+08:00

I am so angry, my mum is so anal today!!

PPG

2008-07-17T21:26:00.002+08:00

This was what I did this afternoon, aside from squandering my youth on facebook, and massive TV watching. Still am not accustomed to staying at home for the entire day, really ): Which is really bad because it's true that every single day I only think of how I can spend the day happily instead of rotting away. But to my parents it just means treating the house like a hotel and checking in only to eat or to sleep ): I think I'm going to get alot of flak from them because for the entire weekend I'll spend it doing the church stuff. HOWW

Paper hearts

2008-07-17T09:50:00.003+08:00

They look so awesome! Sorry I'm really a sucker for useless stuff like such paper toys and you can be assured that my room will be filled with things like such VERY SOON.

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On another note, icecream outing was Greaaaaaat with a captial G ♥ ♥ ♥ Yiting, Cameron and I definitely ate our hearts out, seriously. And then there was Thai Express, followed by booze at Paulaner. No worries we all went home sober, sober enough to see that the cab fare went up beautifully to close to $50. HEART PAINNNN.
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Note to self: Stop laughing about GV. It's bad D:

Squeeze Toy Aliens

2008-07-16T12:58:00.002+08:00

the focus is on the little aliens! they're awesome.
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i am STILL looking at the phone DDDDD:

Ordinary 123

2008-07-16T00:20:00.002+08:00

Read 恋空 today (: Into half the book already, it's quite nice! Happyhappy that I'm back into reading again. Left for alpha camp meeting at night and suddenly it feels like there's alot to do and all. I got lost halfway through the meetings even though I was supposed to do minutes :O So Xinyi's gotta do this one. Hitched a ride from Zhiyang and we stopped by Macs 'cos I was madly craving for fried food. Got an apple pie initially but settled for ice milo (and two bites of the apple pie which I supposedly gave to Zhiyang) and now I'm happy and full (: Looking forward to icecream outing tmr though it's highly fattening I've been gulping fattening food every single day since post camp. Looks like I must start exercising soon D: YOGA YOGA

This phone is quite the beauty

2008-07-15T15:41:00.003+08:00

Woweee I ♥ this phone to bits this moment it is really a beauty with its dust pink exterior and all. Omgad save more $$ save more $$

Officially 19.

2008-07-15T00:39:00.006+08:00

19th birthday wasn't the rah-rah celebration or an annual gathering with the babes and dudes but it was refreshing to spend the day in a peaceful, zen, somewhat grownup manner. Walked around town with twang before heading to toy's'aurus (sp) where we had retarded great fun, and then to the opera gallery where we saw some awesome art pieces. So awesome I JUST had to take photos there. Went to Kinokuniya and bought a Chinese book! ♥ ♥ ♥ Closet bookworm I am. Bumped into Simin the constantly high girl hahaha. Sushi Tei-ed for dinner and the Yasai Tempura was :D :D Japanese food pwns all and I can't wait to go to Japan again. (Note to self: save $$$) Headed off for yyxz after that and was greeted by a birthday song coolness. Happy happy and then AFTER yyxz I really sincerely thought there was a blackout but then tying and enli walked in with an awesome chocolate cake I was touched and happy like whoa awesome I get to blow off candles this year :D Of course yesterday was awesome too because I had dinner with my CSOs and I appreciate that they took time off to celebrate my birthday with me over a little meal that I didn't have to pay (: And many little things too. Like how Shaoming made it tops to text me happybirthday. It's really the little things that count and I was happy he remembered, maybe it's like something already faithfully remembered and difficult to erase. Recently been looking back la I don't know what's gnna happen haha. And how Jason told me he'll treat me to movie next time. And how Yuzheng grudgingly agreed to take me to high tea one day. And how Chan and Mingyi awesomely told me if I don't have any plans on my birthday they'll celebrate with me. And how Yewseng totally texted to tell me he didn't forget omg I was so happy to see his text it's to typically yewseng. And how Zhiyang asked me to lend him the CD after I listen to it but then told me later that he really got it for me and not because he wanted it. And my brother getting me the RiverIsland voucher and also texting me. And of course all the facebooking that my entire OG is recently actively involved in. Realised as I grew older such awesome intangible stuff slowly takes over the presents and everything. Love you all plenty, thanks for letting me know I'm not forgotten.

19 years old

2008-07-14T01:51:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to me. Awesomest day I hope I'll have today!! Had a dinner with my CSOs after they knocked off and it was pure indulgence in oily pratas and roti johns and what not. Bedok is damn bloody far but the food is good. They all say I'm too tanned now I look like a Malay. (And I'm going Sentosa tmr oh no)

MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW.

2008-07-13T10:54:00.003+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW. 19times!!

Shake it like the most awesome pasta.

2008-07-12T15:03:00.004+08:00

Back from camp! Very tired. Imagine we stayed up EVERY SINGLE NIGHT doing rubbish. Playing stupid games, eating supper, telling ghost stories, counting awkward silences. During the camp itself I might've felt that it wasn't that absolutely fun and everything but I tell you it always sinks in awhile after. Now when I look at the photos (very little but still..) and think back it was a really good camp with really funny moments and some very awesome people (: Yiting being the fake freshie thing was really quite traumatic but maybe it's just me who's really really emotional and all. But I'm still glad she was at least a fake freshie so I can still be bitchy to her whenever I see her around :D And of course the awesomest boys Hendric and Edwin who allowed me to steal their caps to cover my horrendous hair. My new favourite word is AWESOME and might I just share with you Trixie's favourite dance move is vibrating on the spot. QUOTE OF THE YEAR.

Soft spots.

2008-07-06T23:03:00.002+08:00

This is such a shenjing night because suddenly everyone's talking about the past and relationships. Sometimes I envy them because they've a past which belongs to them. For me it's more of fleeting moments that I can't wait to forget. It makes me feel like just asking him hey how're you doing now. But I don't want to do it for the wrong reason. The last time I tried, we were gna meet for a meal and 'catch up', but I totally chickened out. Ha, loser I am. Okay, off to camp with a heavy heart. But before that I will type a very important email that I just decided I'll type.

人上人

2008-07-06T01:47:00.002+08:00

Alpha camp meeting went on rather well, and coming up with the 美美名(s) was the highlight of the day. Supper-ed with the usuals after the meeting, and kinda caught up with juin. It's scary to know how different environments shape people from bright-eyed innocent kids to I-don't-know-what. It's especially bad if you're the malleable kind. What a thought provoking night, a night which I was bursting with questions amidst all the secret code talk going on between the others. I haven't found all the answers yet, like why I'm so stupid to ______________ still.

On another note, NTU WKWSCI FOC 2008 is REALLY coming and I still fear being like a loser on the first day. Shit man. But I can't wait for the whole camp thing to be over before I start celebrating my birthday on the eve's eve, eve, and then going for YYXZ FINALLY on the day itself. Happy just at the thought of it. It's going to be a fattening week.

♥ to all! Especially the ones I haven't been talking to for so long.

2 Corinthians 12:9

2008-07-05T16:32:00.000+08:00

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

2008-07-04T13:21:00.005+08:00

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Should I stay in Hall???

And I honestly dread the FOC coming up in a few days. I don't want to feel like a very lost loser on my first day D: Which I think I probably will.

I told my mum about the swimming thing and I think she said okay.

I want to tan.

Fire Engine

2008-07-04T01:37:00.003+08:00

Today, I blasted $158 ++ on the bloody photos. Damn. Not that I'm not willing to fork out the $$, but then I should've selected the photos knowing there were bound to be repetitions right?! Oh, stupid me.

Went back to do yoga today, before visiting Mingyi at PP, and then ended up waiting for her and Annie to knock off so we could chill D: But it was good seeing them again! (: Ate at the HK cafe MY and I always frequent. There's a homely touch to the place that I like. Cabbed home and the uncle is seriously.. creepy. Dreadful, dreadful. Next time I must vet the drivers before I board a cab.

Looks like I gotta forfeit netball tomorrow because I HAVE TO BE AT HOME FOR DINNER BY HOOK OR BY CROOK. And Saturday hopefully my dad comes home early enough so we can go have dinner together before I flee for alpha camp meeting (to prevent them from nagging and saying I'm a wildchild).

Anis looked very stressed at work today and I finally understood why when she told me and I feel very sad I can't do much about it, especially when I'm no longer a staff and I don't want to be in the way during peak period. OH WELL.

So, should I go dye my hair now that no netball = no need to wash hair tmr night? But I'm seriously running low on $$. I must start my saving plan soon! So I can save up enough to get an air ticket and by then hopefully my parents will allow me to go overseas with friends.

I want to learn swimming!! Mingyi just inspired me and made me think it's possible to learn swimming in 10 days, because she did.

Red is my favourite colour

2008-07-02T23:53:00.005+08:00

I've still been diligently updating my little red plain organiser of the little dates and litte notes and little events. Every few minutes I flip it open and try to doodle or squiggle more in it D: No, I'm still sane.

And I really love how this invitation card looks. I really do.

Random.

2008-07-02T01:13:00.002+08:00

1. I need to find out where to get nice textiles because my mum said she'll help me MAKE a smocked tube dress as long as I get her the cloth so I'll stop spending precious moolah on overpriced tube dresses.

2. My sunburnt skin's starting to peel and it's itching like MAD. I mean it.

3. I'm a happy girl because I bought a 2008-2009 diary from Borders. It's very, very ordinary, fire-engine-red hardcover embossed with '2008, 2009' but I still love it alot because I love all things a little plain and ugly.

4. I intend to camp at Coffee Bean tomorrow to finish reading my novel (: I LIKE. Oh and then continue my holiday puzzle book HEH HEH. Post-work days are G-R-E-A-T but I'm growing fatter with the lack of activity and rise in food intake :O

5. The Godiva chocolates my parents bought from their trip are AWESOMEEEE. Acutally so are the Chocolatier ones TWX gave. Okay both are the AWESOMEST.

2008-06-27T18:27:00.002+08:00

The stupid medical checkup took up so much of my time I was so tired by the end of it. And the worst part was when it was time for urine test I couldn't even squeeze out the slightest drop of pee, not to mention filling half a cup.

I wanted to reply, ' Be a decent guy k.'

Last day.

2008-06-27T01:40:00.003+08:00

My last day of work was still hectic like crazy. Stacks and stacks of towels, untidy reception, stupid phonecalls, weird members. But as the crowd cleared and we could finally indulge in small talk it was very good. Had time to talk and you know just chill before I say bye to the consultants. Csos wise I'm only closer to my kawan and denise and I know I'll be meeting them anyhow. Went to chill at bbMacs with Jason after work to talk about everything under the sun (maybe moon) all the way until 1am. Very tired but it's a brand new exposure to alot of things. A thousand thanks to my lovely csos Anis Zura Anna Kak Tini & consultants Narin Wx Shina Chan Jason Audrick Jorand Yanru Feroz & managers Eddie John for the presents, though no one will ever see this. Especially thank you to the consultants for treating me as one of you guys even though csos and consultants don't usually merge/mix. Tee hee I love you all!

2008-06-26T00:38:00.002+08:00

Tuesday
Woke up late for work ($50 incentive byebye), talked to Anis and random members after work for abit, before cabbing to Westmall to meet Zhiyang Enli Juin for a movie. A very silly retarded movie, very good for after work because it's funny and not hard to understand. Today I just realised my old haunt, the bbMacs, has a McCafe now!!! Cool or not cool or not. I never knew leh! Now I can bring my laptop there and chillzzzzz and use their free wireless.

Wednesday
Closeout! Wore my flowery dress which I affectionately term the oriental floral prints dress because the colour code was bright colours. And then got people say look like curtain, got people say too mature, got people say nice. I don't care la I like can already. Gave Aini a surprise visit with Anis after work just to see how's she after her accident (: We gave her gerberas, a Toast cupcake, and a card. Had a great time there just catching up and filling Aini up on what's been happening. After that Anis and I went to eat at Macs and just chill chill (: I like. I guess the bestest thing that's ever happened to me since I started working there is to find someone who's like a real sister to me, who knows about the shitty stupid things I've gone through at work and all, who tells me stuff honestly not to burst my bubble but to prevent me from falling harder.

Thursday will be my last day at work but somehow it doesn't feel very last day-ish. Because I know I'm going to go back sometime in July to help Anis with her engagement invitation cards and nitty gritty stuff. Which I'm very excited about. And if they desperately need people I'll go back to help, with or without pay. And also I'll be going back to attend yoga classes; I'm bugging her to issue me a guest pass.

Friday I gotta drag my lazy ass down to NTU for a medical checkup. Sian la. Maybe I can go tmr and then Friday I can wake up later and go play netball for awhile before alpha camp meeting. Hmm but then why rush tomorrow when I have all the time in the world on Friday. Friday my parents are coming home! I think we're gonna fetch them from the airport and then have supper together. So fun (: It's gonna be so jam packed ah, my Friday.

Day 1.

2008-06-23T23:09:00.002+08:00

Today I spent an entire day at work, well almost. Because I didn't want to go back to an empty house with no one inside. Parents are still at Houston, and I miss them very alot. The first time my mum called which was yesterday, I almost cried after telling my kawan about the phone call. I know it sounds so baby-ish/wimpish but oh well it's not too late to realise I've been so dependent on them all along. Sat around and talked some rubbish to Anis and helped attend to members when it got so so busy. Chit chatted with my favourite members whom I never had much time to talk to. About dependency, about parents, about cherishing them all that stuff. Two plus plus days more before I officially resign. Today I got chocolatey biscuits from this air stewardess member who always brings back nice stuff when she flies back. Made my day (: Anis asked me to help do her engagement invites and flower arrangements. FOC, camp meetings, helping Anis with her stuff. July will be rather eventful!

Three strikes, and you're out.

2008-06-22T22:43:00.003+08:00

For just that five minutes I felt like the most forgotten person on earth. And that, my dear, can never be made up for with subsequent infinite dinner treats you offer. It's always the intention, and it's so apparent this time >:(

Rainbow.

2008-06-19T00:03:00.003+08:00

No I'm not going to blog about my Japan trip I'm too lazy! But I stayed up till 3am just to upload the retarded pictures on facebook omgad I really almost died. My eyebags and dark eyerings combined together are really huge and bad now so I gotta sleep. Love everyone, I'm happier each day just thinking of how I'm gonna stop working and have almost the entire July to myself as a celebration of my 19th year of existence (: Work took a little getting used to but it was peppered with spurts of nice little things, like hugs with my favourites the moment I got to work because I missed them as much as they missed me (haha), Eddie massaging me to wake me up, Eddy my little brother came back to get his paycheque and told me to remember that we're gna work there part time during Christmas again, Yami yoghurt ♥, nice little conversations after peak period, and to top it all off, a normal but kinda heartwarming cab ride home with my very beloved neighbour cum colleague cum going-to-go-school friend Jason Tan (: I miss William though, he left while I was still in Japan and that's just massive sadness because he's been a very nice barney to disturb ): As much as I love my colleagues I can't wait to tender and leave the company, sorry to say that. I reckon life without working sounds a tad more appealing..

OKAY GOTTA SLEEP IF NOT I CAN NEVER SAY GOODBYE TO MY EYEBAGS D:

BACK.

2008-06-17T22:15:00.002+08:00

Update about Japan next time!

BINGED.

2008-06-05T20:34:00.002+08:00

Food intake:
1 soyamilk
Half a ham&egg&tomato sandwich
1 red bean pancake
1 yami yoghurt with cashew nuts
4 scones (2 cranberry, 1 chocolate, 1 raisin)
1 serving of vegetables
1 slice of fish
1 egg
Glass noodles
2 huge fishballs
4 meatballs
2 brown/white cylindrical fishcake thingy
2 squares of chocolate

DAMN BLOODY STUFFED.

bytes.

2008-06-02T12:06:00.005+08:00

some overdue pictures

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Swensens huge huge meal with Anis was the most gratifying (: Both of us were so sick and tired of angry members and work that we decided to reward ourselves to a huge huge meal at Swensen's last night. Oriental beef salad, mee sua, clam chowder, rodeo wings, stickychewychocolate with hazelnut wafer cubes, and last of all waffle with banana split icecream with tastes exactly like bananas (!!!) ALOT right, even more than what we ate at Carousel's late night supper buffet. And then I went to join the supposed John's birthday celebration at Partyworld. Sung and sung and it was all great until I got very sian suddenly and then Mingyi and I went to chillout at this 24h Hongkong cafe which was very good. Thought about the past again (what's new) and spoke with fondness of everyone, the ones we used to know (or so we thought) and the ones we really grew to love and respect but eventually got disappointed by. It all seems too soon, too harsh, but then again, it's time. Okiedokie time to bathe and then get ready to set off I'm scheduled for 230 YOGALATES with Anis hahaha I feel so lazy now though D:

Sad Mad Bad ):<

2008-05-29T22:50:00.002+08:00

Sad
Denise's staying for another month. I'm happy, but I reckon she isn't.
Eddy's gonna leave tmr, so sad ah. My long lost brother I just found and can talk cock with is gone.

Mad
Lazy colleagues.
Pills conking up my moods, making me damn stressed.
Members I greet always happen to be armed with a complaint case what the hell.
Still eating despite being on pills. WHAT THE HELL.

Bad
Not in the mood to take her calls because she'll go on and on and that's the last thing I want to do on days like these, to listen to her droning.
Not in the mood to think about it, him or what because it just makes me more stressed. Don't want to explore the possibility of you liking me AT ALL.

Wah lau I need a break from work. Thank goodness there's still Anis left no matter what.

Goodbye to Irah D:

2008-05-29T00:22:00.001+08:00

Smiley face

2008-05-26T04:21:00.004+08:00

Little things that made me happy recently:

♥ Nice members
♥ Valven giving me his daddy hug before I left the wedding dinner and telling his wife that I'm his daughter (:
♥ Jason asking me to sit with him at the dinner reception
♥ Wx kiap food for me even though I didn't say anything!
♥ Sorting things out with Chan
♥ KTV again with a rather welcoming group of PP consultants
♥ Talking rubbish with my favourite people at work
♥ New games on Audrick's iphone to play with :D
♥ Knowing I'm really over it already. I'm cool with it, yo.

So sad today never take any pictures!! Because because because no mood, we were uber late for the dinner and the mad rush destroyed all the mood ):

Nincompoot.

2008-05-24T22:30:00.002+08:00

What a bad day! I can only say it seems the members I attend to these days are either eccentric or plain childish. Thank you Eddie for giving me a pat on my head and telling me it's just a bad day. Thank you to Audrick too for his weirdass ways of making me laugh.

But today I got ego boost. Steve told me something which made my day A LITTLE better (:

Happily thought I was going to eat some decadent cheesecake at some cheesecake cafe like what Gordon promised last night so I finished my report diligently, only to realise THEY WERE GOING BOWLING AGAIN OMG. And when they finally decided to change their plans I was already nearing home!! :O Stupid Gordon.

Diana left my name as dont know what pussycat because I'm supposed to be Weixiang's cat. Stupid Weixiang's fault.

Received the SMU letter in the mail. Quite surprising, brings me back to the very disastrous interview I had, debating about gender issues and stuff. But I already accepted the NTU offer D: No, I'm not allowing myself to have any second thoughts at all! But aiya I keep staring at the 'congratulations' on the letter why why why??

Wah my new favourite is Bengawan Solo's kuehs. Very nice omg. But Jollibean still very nice also :D Cheap and good!

I am so happy someone finally knows how to go to Haji Lane.. Fatin!! Then I can go with her and we can look at nice vintage stuff finally :O My love haha. Today she asked me for my height, and then proceeded to show me this Silkair ad that stated the criteria to be an air stewardess, one of which was 'Min height 1.58m'.

I want to buy new perfume leh. (and many many many other things zzz)

Very long never nuah at home already, very shiok.

Her legs very nice, omg. They look good together too! (No, I don't mean the legs)

Okay I will go sleep now very very tired. Must gear up for the war tomorrow sianzzzzz.

RARRR/

2008-05-24T10:26:00.003+08:00

I'm so slightly miffed that my waffle was infested by the very irritating ants and as a result I feel so incomplete (because of my incomplete breakfast) D: But it's okay it means I eat lesser haha. I am very happy tonight I'm going out with my happy pills. They are nice, I have healthy fun, and that's all that matters. I'm so happy I'm learning to take what everyone says with a pinch of salt and not try to fit into others' expectations of myself. I just realised I'm experiencing a myriad of emotions all at one go. HO.

Chinese Swimming Club

2008-05-24T02:59:00.003+08:00

Hello I am home! Safe and sound, from bowling with Mingyi Gordon and Jason. Only Gordon and Jason were actually bowling D: I feel safe hanging out with them, like I'll never get hurt, and they'll always protect me. Half the time at the bowling alley my mind travelled back to ocean towers, thinking of what they're doing there with all the drinks and everything. Sometimes I feel extremely stupid to have this feeling of wanting to join them even though I know nothing good will actually come out of it, when I already have a safe haven that I know I'll be happy and fine in. But maybe it is precisely because I'm so sure I'll be okay that I reckon I need something to change this very stable equilibrium..

2008-05-22T13:35:00.003+08:00

From ignorant, happier days.

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Recently online shopping became a little too stale and boring (!!!) so I reverted to surfing friendster and facebook again. And boy I realised half of the people in my friends list I don't exactly remember anymore D: And then the voyeurism keeps me occupied for a while before I get bored ALL OVER AGAIN. So I decide that the best solution is to actually GET OUT OF THE HOUSE on my off day and start shopping around for:

1. My vacation (so I will have nice frocks to wear and take photos in hahaha)
2. Valven's wedding (am I going to get a new dress????)
3. school (no la this is an excuse)

I'm such a lazy person yesternight before I slept I was thinking if I should leave a note saying I won't be having dinner at home so I could go out and shop around and you know agree to any spontaneous plans on the way but then I started having second thoughts about it main reason being I was lazy to climb out of my bed and write the note and after awhile before I could finally decide I actually fell asleep.

Infidelity drives me crazy hahaha thank goodness he's no longer important anymore. Brothers, yo. Thinking back on my frivolous secondary school days I swear I'll never ever be fickle-minded ever again. Not only because of what I've been through but also because of how people around me have been affected. Mmhmm.

Every now and then my GM keeps telling me at work 'Eh tonight we go Plush Bar and sing okay' I can't even differentiate whether it's just to suan me or a sincere invitation. Sometimes I get mildly tempted, because everything is okay already but I highly suspect it's the former la, afterall something very extremely embarrassing did happen there right. Everything started from there la aiyar. Alcohol does funny things to people, so NO.

Aside from the mindless happenings in my boring life, I've recently decided to join the alpha camp comm. To give myself another chance. It's going to be busy, I'm going to have a hard time balancing between work and play, but I know at least I'm going to have a very fulfilling year 1. I'm a little scared, though. But He will lead the way.

Okay I will bathe at 2 and then go out and (window)shop! Oh, so many things I covet but so little cash. I haven't gotten my taxi claims back >:(

Super Sunday

2008-05-19T03:39:00.002+08:00

Today is special because I went out (like most of my working Sundays) but no I didn't go with the usual buncha people and no I didn't go drinking. Instead I went only with Mingyi and another PP consultant to sing karaoke at party world, and then some more chilling out at hongkong cafe :D It's a nice change, I'm drinking bubble tea and eating chicken wings, and singing like mad for 3 hours non-stop instead of taking in liquor which makes me drunk and think about silly things.

Today is special because I spoke to two OUB members who were very pissed off with the way things turned out with the closure and everything but in the end they said even though the management sucks the staff is good, so that helped me gain my job satisfaction back.

Today is special because I can behave like nothing's ever happened and we're (almost) back to our fighting days but this time I can be more sure to treat him more like a brother than anything else (even though the little talk just now really made me think of alot of things I thought were already buried somewhere else zz).

Today is special because I bumped into Claudia Spencer Taufik at Raffles City which is so out of point but in any case it was still a very pleasant surprise because they are all so hilarious with a huge H. Haven't seen my classmates for so long much less schoolmates maybe it's time to meet up and ketchup really soon. Which reminds me of my pending Delifrance breakfast buffet with Yuzheng from the pre-As days D:

Today is special (in a bad way) because my mum stayed up to the point I got home which is really late and I'm just thankful enough that today I'm still sane (just a tad sleepy) and I didn't smell of liquor and/or smoke. Imagine if tonight was that night. I think I would've died, MADLY. Ha. The wonders of how things work.

So therefore I conclude I've ended my chaotic and unpleasant week with a very nice outing that I definitely look forward to making it a weekly ritual (which I suspect is what we're gna do) (: (: (: But tomorrow is the start of another week of war to fight D: I WILL SURVIVE. Till Thursday which will be a day of relaxation, and then Sunday, which will be Valven's wedding dinner.

Whines 101 Part II

2008-05-17T00:21:00.003+08:00

Work is exhausting. My job satisfaction is gone ): You were part of it.

(: and D:

You fed me noodles.

I saw another girl sitting on your lap very easily and I hate to admit this but I feel a little like shit. Learning to get used to it though.

How come you don't sayang me anymore.

Because I want to muse openly I shall keep this blog private until further notice. Ha such little irony.

Whines 101

2008-05-16T00:23:00.003+08:00

Heavy head, heavy heart. I'm so tired, I can't wait for my next off day. I can't wait to get away from 'thoughtful' reminders of the night from my AGM. I can't wait for things to be back to normal. I can't wait to free myself emotionally. I can't wait for Valven's wedding dinner. I can't wait for June to come ): I can't wait for my mini holiday, I can't wait to take many many pictures in summer frocks. I can't wait to finally leave TY, I can't wait to forget all the unwanted memories. I can't wait to lose more weight, I can't wait for my hair to grow longer.

I know we're all trying to act like nothing's happened. I know you're trying to treat me like how you used to. But it's just not the same anymore and everytime I hear your phone ring, or the mention of a waitress, or just seeing you engage in men talk with the rest in the office, I just feel a kind of disgust and disappointment all rolled into a ball. It's very sad that I'm witnessing it on someone I used to have a very good impression of, it makes me lose faith in alot of things, it makes me feel like nobody else in there is worth remembering anymore.

I never meant to type all these out but I reckon tonight I'm just a little too tired of everything.

i like (:

2008-05-15T11:06:00.004+08:00

2008-05-14T01:17:00.002+08:00

Spoke to Mingyi on the phone and I feel alot better already, really. We were telling each other we must jiayou together, we must live better, and that the next time we go out it will not be with the same old people anymore nor will it be at Plush Bar anymore. That in itself is a great pity because I loved Plush Bar quite abit with its pretty decor but unfortunately it was also the same place I saw him walk out hand in hand with another girl who's definitely more attractive, skinnier, and has longer sleeker hair than my dry mane. It makes me feel very very inadequate in terms of EVERYTHING and so I'm determined to bring my weight down down down down to get rid of the inadequacy (if there's such a word). Issues, issues. Having said that I feel extremely fat today because I allowed myself to snack at midnight. But because today is my off day I forgive myself! Okay this is insane I'm already blogging rubbish. Post-trauma recovery is like that, I reckon.

2008-05-13T10:34:00.003+08:00

傻瓜

词/温岚曲/吴克群

其实他做的坏事我们都懂

没有什么不同

眼光闪烁暧昧流动

闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂

没有什么不同

故作软弱撒娇害羞

只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯得多

爱得没那么做作

爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样

被爱情伤了又伤

相信这个他不一样

却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样

受了伤却不投降

相信付出会有代价

代价只是一句傻瓜
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On a brighter note, happy birthday to my dearest twangsie (:

2008-05-12T01:19:00.001+08:00

Seeing him walk away with another girl in his hands hurt more than it should. Maybe I should quit soon. Then perhaps I'll feel better.

Disneyland.

2008-05-11T09:01:00.003+08:00

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All's good, I'm good. Now I'm just looking forward to more outings with my bestfriend @ work, searching for a nice dress for Valven's wedding dinner, taking leave from work to go on a holiday, and anticipating my FOC.

Today,

2008-05-08T00:28:00.003+08:00

I'm nursing a bit of a heartbreak :'(

"Brother!!!"

2008-05-04T22:53:00.003+08:00

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Interest, or pragmatism?

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To-do:
1. Gym/yoga
2. Buy the 2 for $20 tees at far east
3. Eat wisely!!

Carousel.

2008-05-03T02:17:00.002+08:00

Went for supper buffet at Carousel, so now I'm satiated. Feel like puking. I look like a bald chicken now because I went to thin my already short hair D: Tomorrow I'm going to attend the wedding dinner of the daughter of my dad's colleague together with my parents! More food galoreeeeeee (and fats).

Note to self: Must gym tomorrow, no more excuses!

I want to buy the 2 for $20 tees at far east, damn cute can.

Hugs

2008-05-01T02:45:00.003+08:00

that probably don't mean a thing.

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nus fass or ntu comms?

:D

2008-04-29T14:50:00.004+08:00

At Geylang having mangosteens and durians for supper (:

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Off days are so happy and lazy the way I like! I bought a slice of cheesecake from Coffee Bean for tea time later. Shiok ah. To reward myself for gymming and doing yoga after work yesterday :D

Playing netball on Friday at NP with the girls! My mum told me to be careful of my teeth hahaha hilarious.

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Familiar scents.

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2008-04-28T23:22:00.001+08:00

He and I had something beautiful
But so dysfunctional, it couldn't last
I loved him so but I let him go
'Cause I knew he'd never love me back

Byebye.

2008-04-27T22:44:00.006+08:00

Bye to Shimah my half mentor and Valven who always gives me a nice daddy hug ♥♥♥

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Today we had pre-birthday and mother's day celebration at some restaurant in Raffles Hotel. Food was good, I'm satiated :D But rather pertubed though, which kinda made me gorge on food to make myself feel better. OH WELL. Anyway no more dreaming of getting w91oi it's too costly if I were to fork out the $$ myself I guess I'd rather live with a slightly screwed up lg phone for now. Still happy (kinda). Looking forward to our family vacation in June after my bro's ORD. Really looking forward to it. Can get away from the worldly troubles hahaha what rubbish. CONGRATS TO ENLI FOR YOUR SMU OFFER :D

NTU WKWSCI

2008-04-26T06:48:00.003+08:00

Thank God thank God thank God!
I got accepted into Communication Studies at NTU (:

My heart skipped a beat and I'm now so dizzy with excitement that the hunger in my stomach doesn't seem to bother me so much anymore.

:D :D :D

2008-04-25T00:17:00.004+08:00

Makes me feel like making happy cereals too!

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I'm getting quite worried because everyone's starting to get letters from uni and all that confirming their places in uni and I'm like, floating nowhere. HOW.

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On a brighter note, you are no longer indispensable, my dear (:

With you.

2008-04-22T21:09:00.003+08:00

I don't know what you're thinking each time, but a million things sure run through my mind

EDIT. I'm contemplating getting this phone because I recently fell in ♥ with it!

Plush Bar.

2008-04-21T01:40:00.009+08:00

Of Love & Lust.

2008-04-19T23:20:00.003+08:00

What Eddie said keeps replaying in my mind. It was as if he knew what happened even though I didn't give any details. I think it's the work of a guilty conscience.

最长的电影

2008-04-17T21:17:00.004+08:00

What a shenjing photo this is! Taken during our road trip (:

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What: Broken tooth

Why: Bumped into the glass door at work

How: Bloody scary dental appointments; bear with swollen ugly lips D:

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What: Extremely bulky&unhealthy

Why: Huge input of oily food but zero exercise for the past few days

How: Hit the gym tomorrow after some yoga!!

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What: Bothered

Why: Being showered with bursts of attention

How: Pretend nothing has/is going to happen

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Miscellaneous

Food: Red bean/ blueberry anything

Fashion: Little sundresses

Hoping: I can stop worrying about useless things

Wishing: I have fat-burning machines

Contemplating: to get a polaroid camera (hundred odd bucks)

Yearning: to try McGriddles (sp?)

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OKAY BYE TOMORROW IM ON 630AM SHIFT. Hopefully I don't bump into the ops room door AGAIN.

Nitty gritties.

2008-04-11T00:21:00.003+08:00

9 April
Pilates. Then Canele + Little India (which was very devastating and disappointing we just looked at more and more boring buildings and sniffed in some distinct scent D:) Gymmed with Anis after helping out abit back at work 'cos there was a massive crowd.

10 April
I realised diet pills really affect one's emotions! I got worked up very very easily today. No more pills for me! I'm damn thirsty 'cos of that pill too grr. And no I'm still hungry it apparently doesn't work for me AT ALL.

11 April
Night shift again. I hope got no crowd but no that's just hopeless.

12 April
WKWSCI interview, no talents to showcase omgzzz HELPP and I had to take unpaid leave thanksss. I'm secretly scared 'cos I'm never good at interviews GGXX.

13 April
Gym with my friendsforeverAnis and Road trip with DM's virgin drive! Expect to take lots of pictures.

One fine wire.

2008-04-08T22:10:00.004+08:00

Besides your self-composure, you may also wish to bring along your
portfolio of creative works so that the interview panel may assess your other
abilities. This portfolio should showcase your other creative abilities in
addition to your academic achievements. Your portfolio may comprise
samples of artwork design, school newsletter articles and/or related items.

I don't have anythingzzz/abilities to showcase! Zomg. GG already this Saturday. Wish me luck! But still thankful for being shortlisted yes I am.

The unintended.

2008-04-07T20:59:00.003+08:00

A long long hug and kiss(es) at my doorstep = unwanted distress. If he wasn't a good drinker I'd have blamed it easily on alcohol influence but nooooo, he drinks like a mermaid (qx language) and I remembered him being completely sane despite being a bit gone myself. And the root of all the distress is that..

he's attached. Happily too, I reckon.

D:

Not a born baker

2008-04-05T17:49:00.005+08:00

...

Baking Nutella cupcakes today = FAIL

Hahaha

I want to get new cameraaaaa

Wednesday come quick I can't wait to finally go outttt. Now it's back to work D: These days the thoughts of quitting have been coming to mind! OKAY I GOTTA GO

Jamie.

2008-04-04T23:14:00.003+08:00

:D
1. Chicken wings as an extension to dinner (:
2. Happy brunch with mummy and happy dinner with parents tmr
3. Little India on coming Wed with Reuben (a whiff of fresh air from work)
4. Jamie (courtesy of Ros who sincerely helped me search for an English name) will be my new name at work because it's easier to pronounce.

"He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the
Lord."
Psalm 112:7

Slide.

2008-04-02T20:56:00.003+08:00

I will not be tempted to buy clothes online again because somehow the clothes I think are pretty don't look good on me and it doesn't help that the ones modelling for the clothes are always stick thin and born clothes hangers D:< But itz okayz at least out of the two one was not bad so it's 50% hit.

Note to self: No snacking at night!

I need to go out soon before life gets too mundane D:

Pilates is very very fun (:

EDIT. I am so pointless these days! Lack of human interaction once againnnnn D:

Starlight.

2008-04-02T00:24:00.003+08:00

Lethargy, seriously.
And growing fatter.

The nutella cupcake from Toast has been on my mind from yesterday D: Maybe I'll get it tomorrow just because I feel like getting it. It looks soooo good.

Maybe I'll also get my baking materials (like finally) tomorrow so I can start baking anytime I want.

I am very excited at the pills I'm going to take from DM; I envision a slimmer me even if it's just two days' worth of pills.

Yay and the mail's finally coming in tomorrow. My new clothes from a week agoooo.

Okay byezzz I'm going to sleep. Working's such a bitch nowadays because I have to pretend so much.

Jaded.

2008-03-28T23:45:00.003+08:00

Just got back from the wake. Now I'm thinking about tomorrow. I am afraid the uni interview I'm going for tomorrow is the ONLY interview I'll be attending which means I'm not eligible for the other courses D: Anyway I had Geri's company just now and it was kinda great, just chatting about nonsensical stuff after like what seems an eternity. Bimbotic topics I reckon, like updating myself on her latest crush and all (:

Tomorrow:
1. Wake up at 11AM & prepare for..
2. Interview
3. Cell
4. Bake (if nothing goes wrong)

I desperately need to rest. NOW.
Happy birthday to wangxiaojie my happy pill! I'm sorry I didn't turn up at Dempsey's afterall D:

She's safe now.

Mixtape.

2008-03-23T23:08:00.002+08:00

Gym bunny I am :D
I'm so prouda myself that I didn't binge on any food following that.

Final two things I gotta get before I start my $$ saving scheme (after splurging ALOT on none other than cab fares):
1. Budget journal/ organiser
2. A great novel (i.e Leap of Love novella)

Next week is gonna be swell! So many March babies next week, so bound to have celebrations and all. Cg to end the week with a :D. Haven't seen everyone for so long I hope they still remember my face!

Today I was tortured badly by TWX but we have this mutual understanding and it's not like I don't know it's all in the name of fun and he actually treats me quite nicely. But I don't know how to explain it to everyone else who saw because they don't see the other side of the story.

Okay I've nothing much to update already. Much ♥ ♥ ♥ !

Hate That I Love You.

2008-03-22T21:32:00.002+08:00

OMGADDDZ SO CUTE I AM SO HEADING TO WOODWOULD TOMORROW BEFORE GOING BACK TO GYM AGAIN :D :D :D

It's not in the stars to hold our destiny, but in ourselves.

Flowers in the window.

2008-03-18T17:46:00.004+08:00

I am very thankful at how pretty the day turned out today! I love my off days being spent so slowly and peacefully (: Woke up at twelve to the bright mid day sun and ate my brunch with the Mom at where else but Westmallllll. Then it was some magazine reading time before my short nap and then waking up to tuna bread + honeystars yumm :D

Thankful for better hair days, for a fun and happy working environment despite the tiredness, for the love from random people (okay fine I choose to believe that my friends still love me), for being able to learn how to be myself and not trying to conform to people's expectations of me, for results that aren't all that fantastik but at least not DDD. There's been Someone watching my back, evidently, for how life's been all this while ever since the start.

Anyone who hasn't seen my hair short means it's been TOO long! :O So hurry, date me out, date me out. I eat alot more than I used to that I'll willingly oblige to a buffet; I used to think movies were a waste of $$ and so anti-social but I reckon we can always do something more interesting after that hahaha; I don't mind just walking around the ethnic enclaves of our sunny little island like a tourist because I secretly enjoy doing so.

Tomorrow we're all gna be decked out in workout attire for work it's pretty damn funny haha but I like (:

It's just a buncha feelings that we have to hold,
But I'm here to help you with the load.

EDIT: There's this inexplainable feeling when I look out the window and spot my old house :/ Those were the playground days.

Quaintly,.

2008-03-17T20:24:00.003+08:00

Days fly by so quickly that I lose track of time so easily! :O The worst thing is because every day seems like a blur I don't really remember what's been happening for the past few days :X But of course I still remember something that gave me extreme job satisfaction. A member gave Weixiang and I a box of Rittersport chocolates from Europe days back and that made me an extremely delighted and touched girl because it makes me feel special that she'd actually remember to include me even though I don't really talk to her and all! I reckon it was because she's been secretly witnessing Weixiang bullying me, but still, :D

Went to watch The Leap Years, like finally. I kinda liked it, but I was a little disappointed! Because I expected it to be superb after hearing everyone raving about it. But anyhow the lines were meaningful and I wished there was a website with all the quotes in the movie so I can read and re-read the lines and use them in my next ever essay hahaha.

If someone makes a promise, and nobody hears it, does it still make a sound?

Tomorrow is my OFF DAY and I am so glad! It's gonna be a stay at home day I'll make sure of that. Or maybe read book at coffee bean day. Been going out and staying out for the past days so tomorrow shall be a stay-at-home day :D OHOH maybe I should finally get started on baking hahaha. Make cupcakes! :O Oh yes before I forget I bumped into Jessica at Marina Square today! So unexpected I got a shock. Anyway yes girl you said you've been reading right so here's a SHOUTOUT to you! HELLOOOO LOVE ♥

Some things..

2008-03-13T23:21:00.002+08:00

..can't be given a second thought :O

Dusty.

2008-03-13T00:39:00.002+08:00

I really worry about being left on the shelf and unwanted sometimes it's a little scary. It feels like there's no more time :O

Tomorrow I'm on morning shift but nooooo it's dreadful having to wake up so early to go to work ): Dreading it dreading it dreading it. I know I'm supposed to find out what date I'm free to go out but then now all of a sudden all I want to do is to spend more me-time again. Like sit down read a book, do yoga, bake, anything. Gahhhhh maybe it just means I'm tired and need to sleep.

Weixiang bit my cheek today it's gross to the max I don't know why. At work I asked alot of blonde questions suddenly it's a little scary. We all laughed at myself but then again I really amaze myself at the stupid things I ask. Ahhh anyway too bad I'm on morning shift tomorrow if not I'll agree to go out and chill. Looking at how I'm staying up now I wonder why I told Chan I need to sleep I'm on morning.

What a long entry I think I'm crazy enough to stay up and type all this rubbish D: Tomorrow I think I'll:

1. apply for nus and ntu
2. get baking materials for baking (maybe not)
3. get started on another book
4. sleeeeeeeeeep
5. do yoga (hahaha you reckon?)

I've so little to do haha maybe I'll just go straight to 4 it depends! D: Alright I better sleep I hope I wake up with a flat stomach tomorrow morning it WILL make me feel a little better.

Heart-shaped box.

2008-03-11T23:24:00.002+08:00

I want to:

1. Watch the Leap Years
2. Go tour Little India like a tourist
3. Accelerate my hair growth
4. Source out cheap and nice finds
5. Lose weight (it's never been off my wishlist)
6. Get uni applications over and done with
7. Start planning my finances (!!)
8. Rid the habit of snacking at night
9. Pick up reading again
10. Eat a sushi buffet

2008-03-11T01:17:00.002+08:00

Sushi Tei, then Wala Wala. All with TwangAiyun :D The food was good, the music was good, the drummer and the cookie monster guitarist were cute as well hahaha I think they took a liking to both of us (!!!) or was it just Twang I forgot. Anyway I'm super sleepy now but I'm off tomorrow and I think I'm just gonna stay at home to rest. Or bake. I just have to stay at home. Alright cheers folks work's been a little tiring recently and alot of tough feelings to battle so it's a little mentally exhausting. But great books and great food never fail to make me happy so I reckon I can still go on.

Okay bye I'm sleepy!

Peony in Love.

2008-03-08T21:06:00.004+08:00

Hello I spent my Saturday very blissfully, absolute family time and reading a very nice storybook (:

Results day has been quite surreal but today it has finally sunken in that I didn't do so welllll. I got a D for Biology D: The first D in my entire history of major examinations it's a little scary. But otherwise the rest of my grades are densely populated by Bs and very far and few As in between. With such sub-standard grades I still do hope I can make it into any kind of local university!

~~Okay I think I'm about to go out to some weird place with Reuben. If we do manage to find a place in the West that is.~~ Maybe not! Hahaha. Anyway I'm interested in getting a Polaroid camera. Very interested.

2008-03-06T20:34:00.002+08:00

Hello, I snipped my hair short. I don't know what possessed me I reckon I wanted a change and now I kinda regret it AS USUAL. I look like how I did in Sec One it's a little horrible and different from what I imagined it would be :/ Tomorrow is results already and honestly, it's seriously nerve wrecking and I'm trying hard not to think about it. For starters I have no idea what time to report to school and all that HOW ah. But anyhow tomorrow I'm off and tonight I knocked off early so I stuffed myself with food for dinner just so I could be happy for the last nightttt. Work's been pretty much of an office politics thing it's crazy. And I'm no longer so happy working there because now I know there are certain hidden restrictions that make work less bearable. Oh my I can't continue anymore I will be off to find ways to salvage my hairrrr although life's a little too short to fret about it :/

Madam Butterfly

2008-03-02T01:11:00.002+08:00

Ahhhh so when are results coming out! I know it's reaaaaaally soon because Joel's gotten the letter to check for his results ONLINE since he's a private candidate. Anyway it's great the connection doesn't go on and off so I can BLOG. Days've been alright I guess been working working working. Did retail therapy, grew fatter, accepting the fact that I've grown huger. Pay's in already, and I feel rather accomplished looking at my growing bank account. Mmhmm, growing closer to my colleagues and all, losing out on family time and time with my old friends and all, reckon I'll date either anyone out sooner or later before they forget me already. Oh I might just star in some advertisement soon hahaha so watch out for me! No la actually I'm kidding I haven't decided if I want to go for the interview YET. The MEN at work have been telling me I've fat legs fat thighs fat calves fat face it's so stressful I can only wear jeans the whole day to cover my limbs. As for the face, I reckon I can't wear a mask can I. Today I went with Joel to get his guest to sign the contract at THE FASHION BAR after work which was quite a coincidence because I was supposed to go with the girls to celebrate ttl's birthday just days ago! After which we went to Harry's for a drink courtesy of him because because because.. it felt like a drinking night I guess. Ended the night with McDonald's thank goodness we're gymming tomorrow night! Alright I hope results will be good better best I don't wanna cry on results day ): She is very pretty and thin.

What a very incoherent entry.

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2008-02-25T22:45:00.004+08:00

Recently no free soyabean already because everyone's stressed and there's no sales ): Anyway DM asked me when I was getting my results again and I told her I'll make a trip back to share my joy if I do alright but if I don't show up it probably means I did badly. And I said I'll soak in my tears and wallow in self pity for a while. Zzzz. On a happier note today on lunch break DM and I decided to take a walk around and got attracted to the nice nice smell from Munchy Donut and then we just got a dozen back to share with the rest :D

Aiyar I feel very uneasy because because BECAUSE __________ and you always send me in fits of puzzlement grrrrr.

First date & birthday celebration!

2008-02-23T04:13:00.002+08:00

I'm just home from Taufiq's birthday celebration and it was great, really, though a little unexpected. We had a very sumptuous meal at Lau Pasat (all the fried food and sambal seafood), before we proceeded to find a nice pub to settle down in, which we did in the end, in some place with good loud music and kinda cosy minus the ahbengs and ahlians. I was supposed to go meet Reuben and dont know who after the meal and cake cutting but oops I guess I got tempted by the offer of opening bottles. Free bottles of vodka and chivas regal courtesy of Joel and Taufiq, who both had their first (few) credit cards already. The bottles were costly, which is why I don't usually go drinking unless someone's treating. Now I know how much more economic it is to drink domestically. I reckon the long wait at my workplace for the rest to knock off was worth it, considering I enjoyed my 'first date' with Joel and of course celebrating Taufiq's birthday for him. Free cab home as well! I'm a little woozy I guess, maybe that explains the primary school English I'm blogging in, but I didn't do any stupid stuff and I'm still fine (: Gotta go sleep already and wake up to the musical at church which the churchies have been working so hard for. Days've been happy but I reckon we're collecting results really, really soon and that kinda bothers me and just makes me want to drink more and be happy and forget about depressing results ):

More kidnaps.

2008-02-19T00:01:00.002+08:00

Hello, today I just found out something a little horrid :/ SIGHHHHHH it would've been better if I didn't know ): GRRR how now.

You are so.. D: Only a year apart!

I don't think anyone knows what I'm talking about.

Stupid photocopier.

2008-02-17T22:49:00.003+08:00

Lots to blog, but too tired and fat.
I'm pretty much a stress eater and days've been pretty stressed. Kinda.
Work's been okay as usual, just getting tiring. Looking more and more forward to after work and staying back till the middle of the night just to goof around.
Valentine's Day was such a big hooha, we had dreamy weamy pink and white balloons all over the place, only to burst them all the following day.
Flowers and chocolates all over the place also, thanks.
More piggybacks. But I'm said to have been getting heavier, thanks alot.
Felicia Chin came for private classes.
I cried over a stupid stupid thing at work. Couldn't resist.
Sorry I haven't been faithfully replying messages. It only means I'm very tired and don't wish to work my fingers anymore :/
Results are really coming out soon and I don't seem to feel it yet. Joel's dad just passed away and I don't think he wants to hear about results so I literally don't remember I gotta collect results soon.
Photos someday, too lazy.
Think I'm falling sick and my period's coming, damn.
People binge and purge/ diet/ take appetite suppressants (sp) like it's normal at work.
I haven't been praying for so long.

Truce.

2008-02-13T22:50:00.003+08:00

<3

2008-02-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

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Thank you for making me the little girl that you (all) adore so I always get free soy milk and piggybacks and pats on my head minus the bites and flicks and pinches whenever I feel grouchy or sad.

more than a 100 pounds.

2008-02-11T01:03:00.000+08:00

A very tired Sasha and me! Look at our huge eyebags D:

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Sunday night I spent it with the churchies at Cathay watching the Jay Chou movie and it was cheesy beyond words. I couldn't help yawning like mad because I was crazily tired but nevertheless I treasure the little little time spent even though movies are an antisocial activity :x

Work was a little more splendid today because everyone came back from cny break and there was more life in the club (: Free piggyback today again! Ate free Swensens with the other CSOs and it was splendid, very splendid, that I totally lost it and started gorging myself! My, my. Oh today we played Uno using FHM poker cards I felt a little embarrassed holding those scantily clad ladies in my hands :/ Oh crap I left my book in Anis' office I'd better go take it tomorrow it's a LIBRARY BOOK.

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If we only had one chance at love, why do we still surrender and cave in to fate when we could've embraced without regrets?

♥♥♥

Sekret sekret :D

2008-02-09T10:23:00.000+08:00

Hello I saw many nice things on Victoria's Secret but then they are too expensive and no I don't need such expensive stuff! :/ Chinese New Year's been the most extravagant form of enjoyment and now it's back to work! But I'm not complaining, really. Okay, maybe a little. The $$ from my pay and the red packets has been making me itch to do some retail therapy both online and off but then I'll just wait abit and see how long more I can tahan.

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Went out with Qixin and her Chongjiahao yesternight for drinks at this nice place called Villabali and it was strangely fine because I thought it'd just be weird andandand I must say this! Qixin called Oats and I spoke to her and she could guess who I was! :O Amazingggggg and she hadn't even heard my voice before. Oh and anyway my drinks were paid for and I was sent home safe and sound so thank you yall (:

Shots.

2008-02-08T00:23:00.000+08:00

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Very sincere, very concerned. Blessing. ♥

BAKWA.

2008-02-05T23:13:00.000+08:00

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I love that you always call just to talk about random silly stuff ♥

'You are so heavy!'

2008-02-05T00:38:00.001+08:00

Nights are made a little better because of the little phonecalls.

Hello everyone do you think I'm fat and heavy. Human weighing machine #2 glared at me and told me I was heavy D: Horrid.

I had a very sweet dream last night but all the more that made me feel horrible when I woke up ):

Tomorrow got steamboat dinner at home! Early reunion dinner. I'm gonna go without food the whole day just to save up space for dinner :D

My hair's pretty screwed up now. My face too. Sucks. Gonna go for a bob cut after CNY. Like when my hair grows longer and thicker again I'm gonna snip it short.

My eyebags are pretty bad ):

Irritating(ly cute.)

2008-02-02T21:48:00.001+08:00

Hello hi today work was a little horrible and devastating because of a very siao customer who really doesn't like to listen. But then luckily she was taken care of and I could escape. Last night at work Joel and I were talking about A level results coming out, and I was still confidently telling him that I don't think about it anymore but then I finally found out (a little too late) that we aren't competing against the MI people and everything which means we're up against strong competitors which means my chances of doing okay drop which means.. heh heh. GG. Aiyerrr and ever since then thinking about it slightly has been making me dowwwwwwn. And work didn't seem comforting because there's always so much to learn and I feel so overwhelmed and inadequate sometimes. I got my first pay already and it really is peanuts after the CPF and everything but it's okay the company there is priceless. Whatever happened to the class gathering thing I'm a little piqued that it's suddenly off so early because it's a little unfair! But I guess it's not that unexpected, really. It'z okayz aiyah bad mood bad mood because.. of many things! But I guess it's not up to me to control!

So pretentious.

'Kidnap!'

2008-01-30T20:24:00.001+08:00

Work was a little boring because of the small crowd but I guess the food made up for it. I got a little bored so I went into the call centre to talk to Jacq and also steal William's spaghetti. Oh and Weixiang bought bakwa so I went to eat that as well. Lydia dropped by today again :D A very pleasant surprise she's a very very sweet lady. Denise is getting appetite suppresants and I'm considering asking her help me get some for me as well! Since pay is coming in anyway. Anyway today I rushed to tiong to meet Twang and Claressa for lunch! It was very last minute but I still enjoyed it! Tomorrow's gonna be the same again but I'm gonna meet her earlier for lunch since I'm on 230 shift. Yay can catch up (: Gonna meet Qixin soon too to catch up over some drinks. Probably the schoolies too! Girls outing. And family time with my parents. Thank God the week's been a rather smooth one so far. I'm glad I finally found the balance between work and friends and family.

♥♥♥ !!

OH I FORGOT TO MENTION I MET WILLIAM KOH AT THE TRAIN STATION. Cool thing hur. It's been so long, too long.

Prick.

2008-01-29T00:17:00.001+08:00

Thankful that work was good today! Lydia coming over and planting me a kiss, chocolate fondue and pizza, Weixiang's piggybacks, the motivation to workworkwork, laughlaughlaugh with the other CSOs and the random consultants, everything (: It's almost a month working at TY and I already love it there. Thankful for all the love and concern that everyone showers me with. (: But I think I should stop calling Eddie daddy and Lydia mummy because I am quite scared that people will think I'm trying to pull strings with the GM(s). But they still treat me like their daughter (: Anywayz tomorrow I'm gonna meet up with Twang for lunch! Probably Ngiap and Wangsy too. Great, great. Only that we're gonna squeezeee again I don't like. Lunchtime crowd ehhh. Anywayz, I'm on morning shift tomorrow! Heh heh heh I'm going to do some retail therapy again D: Pay coming soon I suspect. I can smell it. Oh I'm thankful that my colleagues have been covering for me because I've been making mindless mistakes D: But I still love work! Maybe if I don't do well I'll just stay there and work for life hahaha. Okay gotta go bye this Sunday I'm off I'm going for service! Finallyfinally. ♥♥♥ to everyone who cares!

Midnight bottle.

2008-01-27T03:29:00.000+08:00

Today, I went drinking, as in really drinking.
No, I'm not drunk.

I heard results are coming out next week from everyone at work.
Let go, and let God.
But if results are out next week, then my off day will no longer be on Sunday.

I have three Daddys and two Mummys now (:

'No flirting in the office please!'

2008-01-25T01:14:00.001+08:00

Aiyo I shifted here from my last hideout because I couldn't change the template anymore!! And it is so horrible being stuck to the same template for so long and worst still now it's just a black patch with horrible fonts. Anyway hello days've been good. Met up with Wangxiaojie and Twangaiyun for lunch! It helped that we ALL had one-hour breaks so we all had the same sense of urgency. Although the lunch crowd was terrible and one hour was too short for catching up we still had fun squeezing in a corner at Ah Mei (: Oh of course I went for my long awaited retail therapy! Alone yes very anti social but I don't care I enjoyed myself quite a bit. And today work was good! I had happy food when I woke up and then I ate healthily for the rest of the day Mr Bean is my new love. Today it wasn't so busy and I was just happy doing my work and talking to the rest and being abused and getting my free bananas! But it was pretty embarrassing and all I can say is that it's a scandalous office yes. Today was also the release of results for O's. It's always so easy to say it's good enough it's good enough not bad already to others. But then today I didn't say anything because I thought of how it'll be when MY results come out. And if it's less than what I expect I'll probably just kill whoever tells me it's okay, really. Ahhh what a crappy entry hahaha. Chinese New Year week my OM just invited me to go karaoke-ing with them but then I don't dare to go because I scared they all start to sing Malay songs and I'm the only Chinese there. AHHH. Can I go someone's house to collect hongbaos instead! Aiya tomorrow got work again. I made a pact with Zanna to eat soupy dishes for TEN days! Look forward to a healthier and thinner me hahaha okay bye!